Thursday, September 04, 2003
ARRRGGGGGGGG Have I mentioned I can't wait for this divorce to be over as soon as possible??? E was up to his usual drunken crap again - he got pissed at me because I had to work tonight and gee I was JUST mentioning it to him at 8pm??? Ummmm HELLO????? Like did he think I was never going back to my job??? WTF??? So now we are back to "warring" according to him - I am to remember he's there as a curteousy to me for my job BUT I need to tell them to find a replacement for me by FRIDAY or higher a babysitter because he's NOT one!!! Ummm aren't they YOUR children??? OHHH and let's not pay any $$$ to me this payday for child support, money he's already spent or room/board.... I just LOVE when he threatens to withhold the $$ from me... It used to work me in a tizzy but hey I will survive without it if I have to and I think that attitude really pisses him off... As for the job.... well I can always get my friend to watch the boys but that's gonna grow old VERY fast so I will have to move my mom in but I can't do that til the divorce is final because if I do he will contest just to make things more difficult on me... The next 2 month won't go fast enough - today after Deven is off to school I am gonna load up Dilen and head to the law library by the Court house... I think we can file something to waive the 35 day wait between the initial filing, his not answering/contesting and my filing asking for judgment by default - as long as he agrees - just gotta find the wordage in the law library.... He's really starting to get more and more irrational lately... The latest is that he's got all the different versions of the sep agreement showing how *I* have been constantly changing things... UMMMM pardon me - but it's been reprinted w/changes repeatedly because HE has demanded them and if a judge looked at it they would see that all the changes have been in HIS favor!! OHHH and NOW suddenly I am to change my name??? It belongs to him and the boys - not me... Well that doesn't fully bother me either way but having a different name then the boys does.... I'll have to discuss that issue w/him again soon before I file Monday... The worst is when he's pissed at me he tries to blackmail me by saying if I do X then he will never have anything to do with the boys again... AND he's saying crap like this in front of them.... Ok so I have yelled at him and called him a drunk, etc within hearing of the boys but I have NEVER said such hurtful things that I KNOW the boys can pick up on... *sigh* Of course he remembers VERY little the next day... it's getting worse I swear... I just keep praying to my higher power to give me strength and to move things along quickly and easily... Well it's off to have a smoke... Til next time...
